.__==**Even Angels Cry...__==**

When I abandoned you I ceased to breathe,

Though I still continue to bleed.

And I continue to feel.

I want the emotional laceration to last forever,

Pain is the only thing you left me

That I want to endure to continue feeling you.

To continue feeling us.

tease me,

embarrass me,

Forget me,

Fool me,

Ignore me,

betray me,

Disrespect me,

hate me,

lie to me,

hurt me,

Use me,

Abuse me,

Push me,

kill me,

anything you want.

just don't go.

What burst people to tears?

My heart already ceased to beat when we parted.

All the tears I cried already dried.

Then I saw you and my heart begun to pound.

Finally I cried.

Kasabay ng pagbuhos ng ulan ang taimtim na pahluha ko,

Sa pangungulila ko sa pag-ibig mo;

Lahat ng pangarap at pangakong magkasamang binuo,

Inanod na sa mundong walang pagsuyo.

Matatamis na alaala ang natatanging baon,

Na siya ring nagsisilbing multo ng kahapon;

Heto ako nakatitig sa larawan mo,

Asam makapiling ka sa huling pagkakataon.

Paalam na,

Hayaan nating burahin ng ulan ang mga alaala;

Sa ngayon sasabayan ko ang langit sa pagtangis,

Bawat dampi sayo'y magbubulong minahal kita ng labis.

Sa pagtila ng ulan luha'y manunuyo,

Kasabay maglalaho ang alaala mo;

Mga tulang sabay nating binuo,

Ngayo'y tinutuldukan ko.

HYMN TO ISIS

For I am the first and the last

I am the venerated and the despised

I am the prostitute and the saint

I am the wife and the virgin

I am the mother and the daughter

I am the arms of my mother

I am the barren and my children are many

I am the married woman and the spinster

I am the woman who gives birth and she who never procreated

I am the consolation for the pain of birth

I am the wife and the husband

And he is my rejection

Always respect me

For I am the shameful and the magnificent one.

At every moment of our lives we all have one foot in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss.

How is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before to vanquish so quickly?

Sometimes you get no second chance and that it's best to accept the gifts the world offers you.

If I must be faithful, I have first of all, to be faithful to myself.

If I'm looking for true love, I first have to get the mediocre love out of my systems.

Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever finally come to realize that nothing really belongs to them.

It is not time time that changes man, nor knowledge; the only thing that can change someone's mind is love.

But if I don't think about love , I will be nothing.

All my life, I thought of love as some kind of voluntary enslavement… Freedom only exists when love is present. The person who gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves the most.

In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel.

No one loses anyone because no one owns anyone. The is true freedom: Having the most important thing in the world without owning it.

There is always a right moment to stop something.

Being young inevitably means making mistakes.

 Passion: it can be used to describe the beauty of an earth-shaking meeting between two people… It's there in the excitement of the unexpected , in the desire to do something with real fervor, in the certainty that one is going to realize a dream. Passion sends us signal that guide us through our lives, and it's up to me to interpret those signs.

The great aim of every human being is to understand the meaning of total love. Love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves; we simply awaken it.

The universe only makes sense when we have someone to share our feelings with.

Keeping passion at bay or surrendering blindly to it -- which of these two attitudes is the least destructive? I don't know.

I've learned that waiting is the most difficult bit, and I want to get used to the feeling, knowing that you're with mw, even when you're not by my side.

Profound desire, true desire is the desire to be close to someone.      

What is real always finds a way of revealing itself.

I've met a man and fallen in love with him. I allowed myself to fall in love for one simple reason: I'm not expecting anything to come of it.

Important meetings are planned by the souls long before the bodies see each other.

The most important experiences a man can have are those that take him to the very limit; that is the only way we learn, because it requires all our courage.

It wasn't necessary to know your own demons in order to find God.        

Every human being experiences his or her own desire; it is part of our personal treasure and although, as an emotion, it can drive people away… it brings those who are important to us closer. It is an emotion chosen by my soul, and it is so intense that it can infect everything and evryone around me.

The strongest love is love that can demonstrate its fragility.

If love is real, freedom will conquer jealousy and any pain it causes me.

If you want to achieve your objectives, you have to be prepared for daily dose of pain and discomfort.

Sex has come to be used as some kind of a drug: in order to escape reality, to forget about problems, to relax. And like all drugs, this is a harmful and destructive practice.

If a person wants to take drugs, in the form of sex or whatsoever, that's their problem; the consequence of their actions will be better or worse depending on the choices they make. But if we are talking in terms of making progress, we must understand that "good enough" is very different from best.

We all have a rock inside us, and in order to make love, the hands on both clocks have to be pointing to the same time… If you love another person, you don’t depend on sex act to feel good. Two people who live together and love each other need to adjust the hands of their clocks, with patience and perseverance, until they realize that making love is more than just an encounter, it is "genital embrace."

When a teacher helps someone to discover something, the teacher always learns something new too.

Ever since we were expelled from paradise, we have either been suffering, making other people suffer or watching the sufferings of others.

Man has understood that suffering, if confronted without fear, is his passport to freedom.

When I had nothing to lose, I had everything. When I stopped being who I am, I found myself.

We are human beings, we are born full of guilt; we feel terrified when happiness becomes real possibility; and we die wanting to punish everyone else because we feel impotent, ill-used and unhappy.

Pain and suffering are used to justify the one thing that should bring only joy: love.

Life is too short, or too long… to allow… the luxury of living it so badly.

Original sin was not the apple that Eve ate, it was her belief that Adam needed to share precisely the thing she had tasted.

Certain things cannot be shared. Nor can we be afraid of the ocean into which we plunge our own free will; Fear cramps everyone's style. Man goes through the hell in order to understand this. Love one another, but let's not try to possess one another.

They all believe that man feels desire for only eleven minutes a day, and that they'll pay for fortune for it. That's not true; a man is also a woman, we wants to find someone, to give meaning to his life.

Bodies always understand each other, even when the souls do not.

Love was necessary if one was to experience pleasure in bed.

Do you know what it feels telling the whole world that your partner reciprocates your emotions -- Telling every detail of even the simplest things he has done for you, letting the whole world know how much you are being loved, allowing them to feel how lucky you are in the arms of the person you want to be with yet realizing in the end that you have miscalculated the feelings of your partner? Suddenly they feel envious. Some are happy though. May be I know. May be I’ve been there. Can you imagine how humiliating it is being derided by fate – making the people see how you came to believe that you are fortunate enough being loved by the person you really wanted to love you and letting them see how you’ve been betrayed by that same person even if you already ceased from saying how you feel. Some feel pity. Though some mocks at you. May be it’s one of the worst feeling. But the real struggle is the one within you – the feeling of having him when in fact he was never been yours.

I don’t actually know if I’ve been in love. I’ve been into relationships and yet I still don’t know whether or not it was really love that I felt because if I did, why do I feel hurt. A lot of people claim that they  are in love and yet they are happy. If this is love, why do pain dominate me? A lot of questions bother me. While I tried hard to answer my own questions, why does it always lead me to the same road – self-denial? May be it’s true, it was love that I felt, only it was not returned.

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You entered: katherine anne ofrecio laurio

There are 26 letters in your name.
Those 26 letters total to 137
There are 14 vowels and 12 consonants in your name.
 
What your first name means:

Your number is: 11

The characteristics of #11 are: High spiritual plane, intuitive, illumination, idealist, a dreamer.

The expression or destiny for #11:
Your Expression number is 11. The number 11 is the first of the master numbers. It is associated with idealistic concepts and rather spiritual issues. Accordingly, it is a number with potentials that are somewhat more difficult to live up to. You have the capacity to be inspirational, and the ability to lead merely by your own example. An inborn inner strength and awareness can make you an excellent teacher, social worker, philosopher, or advisor. No matter what area of work you pursue, you are very aware and sensitive to the highest sense of your environment. Your intuition is very strong; in fact, many psychic people and those involved in occult studies have the number 11 expression. You possess a good mind with keen analytical ability. Because of this you can probably succeed in most lines of work, however, you will do better and be happier outside of the business world. Oddly enough, even here you generally succeed, owing to your often original and unusual approach. Nonetheless, you are more content working with your ideals, rather than dollars and cents.

The positive aspect of the number 11 expression is an always idealistic attitude. Your thinking is long term, and you are able to grasp the far-reaching effects of actions and plans. You are disappointed by the shortsighted views of many of your contemporaries. You are deeply concerned and supportive of art, music, or of beauty in any form.

The negative attitudes associated with the number 11 expression include a continuous sense of nervous tension; you may be too sensitive and temperamental. You tend to dream a lot and may be more of a dreamer than a doer. Fantasy and reality sometimes become intermingled and you are sometimes very impractical. You tend to want to spread the illumination of your knowledge to others irrespective of their desire or need.

Your Soul Urge number is: 8

A Soul Urge number of 8 means:
With an 8 soul urge, you have a natural flair for big business and the challenges imposed by the commercial world. Power, status and success are very important to you. You have strong urges to supervise, organize and lead. Material desires are also very pronounced. You have good executive abilities, and with these, confidence, energy and ambition.

Your mind is analytical and judgment sound; you're a good judge of material values and also human character. Self-controlled, you rarely let emotions cloud judgment. You are somewhat of an organizer at heart, and you like to keep those beneath you organized and on a proper track. This is a personality that wants to lead, not follow. You want to be known for your planning ability and solid judgment.

The negative aspects of the 8 soul urge are the often dominating and exacting attitude. You may have a tendency to be very rigid, sometimes stubborn.

Your Inner Dream number is: 3

An Inner Dream number of 3 means:
You dream of artistic expression; writing, painting, music. You would seek to more freely express your inner feeling and obtain more enjoyment from life. You also dream of being more popular, likable, and appreciated.

Upside Down

by 6 Cycle Mind

I’ve been spending some time, thinking i’d be alright
Don’t know if I could really make it tonight
Lie awake in the dark, come down then I start
Thinking about you is almost breaking my heart
I don’t know where I went wrong, or what’s going on
Baby, I fell like our love’s lost tonight
Should I stay, should I go? Well, I really don’t know
Lately I’ve been missing you so

[Refrain]
Baby, you don’t understand our love lies lost
But you’re still holding my hand
Oh and then you walk away
Just tonight, I want you to stay

[Chorus]
You’re turning me on, you turn me around
You turn my whole world upside down

Everytime I hurt you, well it’s hurting me too
Don’t know if I could really stay here tonight
Tired of thinking of you, I never think that you do
Tell me what am I supposed to do
Well, I just wanted to say that I need you today
Tell me it’s all gonna work out alright
I don’t know where I should I start
But with all of my heart
Baby let me be your lover tonight

[repeat Refrain and Chorus]

Oh you know, you turn me upside down
You know, you turn me upside down

[repeat Chorus]

"Wake Up"

I'm going to ride this plane out of your life again.

I wish that I could stay but you argue.

More than this I wish you could've seen my face

In backseat staring out the window.

I'll do anything for you,

Kill anyone for you.

So leave yourself intact

'Cause I will be coming back.

In a phrase to cut these lips,

I love you.

The morning will come

In the press of every kiss

With your head upon my chest

Where I will annoy you

With every waking breath

Until you decide to wake up.

I've earned through hope and faith

The curves around your face

That I'm the one you'll hold forever.

If morning never comes for either one of us,

Then this I pray to you wherever.

I'll do anything for you.

This story is for you.

('Cause I'd do anything you want me to... for you.)

I'll do anything for you,

Kill anyone for you.

So leave yourself intact

'Cause I won't be coming back.

In a phrase to cut these lips,

I loved you.

The morning will come

In the press of every kiss

With your head upon my chest

Where I will annoy you

With every waking breath

Until you decide to wake up.

The morning will come

In the press of every kiss

With your head upon my chest

Where I will annoy you

With every waking breath

'Til you decide to wake up.

How does it feel to be an empty room? Perhaps, at least one knock at the door could break the silence and would somehow whisper a hope to my desperate being. Nobody came. Nobody rescued - Just the same when nobody stayed. Everyone abandoned me until darkness finally took away my sanity. Vagueness is all that accompanies me.
May be this is what it feels to be like an empty room - shattered and helpless, meaningless and useless.  I guess i just want to die.  May be they also do.

In my silence I would love to forget
Restitution hasn't come quite yet
And with one accord I keep pushing forth
While I stretch my heart to heal some more

It used to be all I'd want to learn
Was wisdom trust and truth
But now all I really want to learn
Is forgiveness for you

As my seasons change I've now grown to know
When one's heart creates, one's soul doesn't owe
So I wash away stains of yesterday
Then tempt my heart with love's display

Last night, I thought of you. I’ve been asking myself why everything happened. I’ve been finding reasons to blame myself for this tremendous casualty that broke my relationship with you. I want to see my fault. Where did I go wrong? I would somehow be glad to know if I had grave contributions to the wreckage of this bond. I want to blame myself but I can’t see reasons to do so.

Beads of tears roll incessantly from my eyes. I want you back but I can no longer afford committing another mistake. So I painfully imagine everything we had shared- embraces, kisses, stories, touches etc. I want to dream of you. If I do, I guess it is enough to suffice my craving for your nearness. After overtimes and busy days, I realized that I really haven’t moved on. Can’t I just go back to my past when there was no you and me? You’re in my systems already penetrating my psyche and my heart.   Still, I’m longing to be near you. I want to go back to what we are before. I want you back in my life.

But I never dream of you…perhaps even in dreams I don’t deserve you. But still, I’m in love with you. During my dull moments I only want to think of you. Will we ever be together? After all the things you’ve done, I’m still here waiting for you. I haven’t learned and I am very much afraid to learn. I’m afraid of the day that I will no longer think of you, that I will no longer love you. I’m afraid of forgetting you. That’s the last thing I will do. I only want to forgive you now but I find that really hard to do.

I miss saying I love you. I miss calling you my baby. I miss everything about you – from your non sense stories to the serious ones. I miss everything, even the petty fights. I miss us.

Is there any other obscure way of saying please wait?